My first birthday cake as a mom.
Faith is the best gift I could ever receive. I will never do anything more important than being her mom. Everything I do gravitates towards her. All I am, all of me, my whole being is dedicated to her life. Whatever strength I have I carry the torch through her.
I will teach her what my mom has taught me.
To be strong and courageous
To be generous
I pray that Faith lives a long and happy life. Reveal more of yourself to her each and every day. Let all who meet her experience Your love. That she is healthy. Keep her safe from harm. Protect her thoughts, words and actions and let all she do be pleasing to you. We ask this in Jesus name. Amen.
Don’t worry about being lonely for long- you will find the other people out there who are just like you. It’s not selfish if you distance yourself from people who hurt you or drag you down. I just had a sleepover with my best friends from high school, and it made me remember how important this is. Surround yourself with people who make you laugh and feel good about yourself, and that’s all you’ll need.
My 5am(s) will never be the same again. I embrace what is, who I am, what I am feeling at this moment and coming into terms of my new responsibilities as a working mom. As my maternity leave is coming to a near close, I am reflecting on the extreme emotions that I have felt during the past 3 months from Faith’s birth to now infancy.
Extreme fear - Fear of losing her in the first few days in NICU. Fear of motherhood. Am I ever going to know if I am doing it right?
Extreme joy - Oh her cute sneezes, chubby cheeks, and funny fourth toe on her left feet. I am devouring every moment with her in pure bliss.
Extreme thankfulness - through the sleep deprivation, crying, and the testing of my resilience, I am so thankful for my mommy group chat. We have shared almost daily texts of our concerns, advices, product recommendations and laughs about our little ones. They have been my life support to get through the rough days whether they knew it or not. And trust me when I say I have had so many rough days. Postpartum was semi-kind to me.
I feel much better now with my head above the water.
Thank you for letting me have this special time off with Faith. Thank you for leading us mommy friends to share the same journey. Thank you for a loving and patient husband who has been supportive to say the least. You watch over every little detail in my life. Though there are days when I feel like it’s chaos, you help me make sense of it all somehow. Thank you Lord. Amen.